Brian it seems like you have changed…Oh yes I have changed going over two months without clean shaving my head means a lot…Not in a bad way but to enrich my soul with wisdom which had been limited since my childhood. It is for this reason and on another day bold enough to mention that in 2011 left my country for overseas shores to enrich my intelligence.
I have since rediscovered that I have to live my life to the fullest and not impress anyone with high-profiled pictures on Facebook in front of Buckingham Palace or Emirates stadium but have realised that I just need to refocus for the next two years for the better upbringing of my children.
It is for that reason that I pray to the Almighty to comfort me where I had been hurt and further pray that he gives me strength to walk until I become comfortable with my target in life.
It does not help to wish my parents were here to see me grow…It wont bring them to me but they are watching me from the heavens and protect me as I take the underground train, fly over the sky leaving my children hungry and wailing…
I know I have been very disrespectful in life in the past, had some bad reputation of bad hand of bashing but I later discovered that I don’t have to live to hurt and destroy other people’s innocence. I always pray to God to always to forgive of such , I mean you know yourselves I just don’t need to be mentioned.
My extended forgiveness is spread through to the one who inflicted the scar on my face and damaged the whole innocent look I had and this goes out to the main source of the misunderstanding. Guys I forgave you should know that I just have to live my life on the positive.
I know they used to laugh openly when some people would see me deformed, that did not bring me down but it inspired to work hard and ignore such imbeciles who are only concerned in gossiping and backbiting other people who have achieved bigger but has never revealed it to the world.
My true friends in life I pray for your success and all those who always respected me especially Bongani Kwarang Nxumalo from Eskomu KaMsunduza, this is my best friend whatever my high classed friends would say they know my life does not go without shaking a hand of this man ….This guy has always showed me what true friendship is…It is just a matter of time I work together with you so we can be in the same level my brother.I always pray for you and your mother my homeboy.
From this second page of my revelation I just want to lead a life which is inspiring to many brothers in my dusty backyard ekasi and I know as we trust in God he will definitely bless us and we definitely thank him for the little he will provide because God will never give you something somebody else is supposed to have.
It is for this reason that jealousy about other people’s possessions is not the way to go…nekutsi Brian sojola nabani kumhluphe ngani lomunye umuntfu; I always hear a lot saying “Yesterday he hooked up the b#$%^ from Manzini” why is it that people will always be concerned on what other people are doing…
It so unfortunate that most people are always pointing fingers on the men of the cloth labelling them with all sorts of insults. I am just happy none of the pastors has ever gone to a drinking hole to preach there but we are the ones who leave our alcohol half filled bottles and go to the churches and gossip…Why? I just wonder.
After living all the dirty life filled with sex, alcohol, drugs, crime I pray to God to give me strength to walk on the right path until I climb the stairs of faith and find God’s love…I wish at the end of the day I should be the direct reflection of my surroundings and people I live with….Just Pray you will find comfort
